The open, smiling face in the picture makes her want to cry. Her father puts his arm around her. “Don’t be too upset on Monday. I know it’s been tough. But we’re terribly proud of you, you know.”
"For what?" she says, blowing her nose. "I failed Dad. Most people think I shouldn’t have even tried."
Her father pulls her to him. He smells of red wine and a part of her life that seems a million years ago. “Just for carrying on, really. Sometimes, my darling girl, that’s heroic in itself.”
-The Girl You Left Behind
Go away SJSU
Ever since I graduated I’ve wanted nothing more than to be completely rid of SJSU but SJSU, it seems, is not ready to let me go just yet. In the last week I have gotten emails about how I have a lot of units and really need to graduate (my diploma arrived in the mail last week), a $2000 charge for my Finland trip (which I paid for and completed 8 months ago), an email that I was being honored for a scholarship (mistake?), and email that I’d made the Deans list (…).
Very Good Things- February
-Started taking yoga classes at the Sports Center again and found a great class.
-Started my new job as a fashion stylist. The pay is good and I can work from home. Win!
-Saw Michaela and Everett.
-My old roomie, Ysela, took a job with Americorps and is being stationed in…. NEW ORLEANS. I screamed at my phone when I saw the news. Currently planning trips for May and October. Halloween in New Orleans? YES AND YES.
-The guys want to go to Hawaii, so now I’m planning a trip there too.
-Got my first paycheck from the new job and it was a beautiful thing.
-Survived a 3 am roll-out shift at J.Crew and bought myself a sweet maxi skirt. There are perks to being the first person to see new merchandise.
-Loaded Tinder on my phone. This may not be a good thing in the long run, but it sure is fun.
I can’t believe it’s already March.
Very Good Things
-Got a mystery check from SJSU for $1400.
-Got a job as a part-time stylist. Improved pay, I get to work from home, and I get to pick my hours. Winning.
-Finally paid off my credit card. Cut hours + Christmas aren’t a good mix.
-Celebrated paying off my credit card by buying awesome workout clothes. Apparently I’ve learned nothing about debt.
-Befriended two Starbucks baristas. I’m officially a regular!
-Secret 75% off sale at Jcrew. Bought some shorts for 5 bucks and a wool pencil skirt for 11.
I just had the best thing ever happen.
Today I went into Starbucks like I always do. For the last month I’ve had a lot of closing shifts so I started getting myself a small decaf on my break. It started because my manager is half in love with this new guy that works there and kept bugging me to go to Starbucks so I could see this guy she kept talking about. Naturally it took a few tries and I guess I developed a decaf habit along the way. The first time I saw him a few weeks back we chatted a little bit, but nothing out of the ordinary. So I was quite surprised when today he remembered me AND my drink order. And then the other hot guy who works there waved at me and ALSO KNEW MY DRINK ORDER. AND THEN WHEN I LEFT THE FIRST GUY YELLED “BYE WHITNEY” AND I DIED.
I’ve waited my whole life for a barista to memorize my drink order and now I have not one… but TWO and both of them are cute (bonus points for cuteness).